Sunday, July 30, 2006'♥
Clubbed at MOS last night with shumei, jordus &nick heng yesterday. D music was great and all but d whole place was packed.
and yes. We love singapore when we are at MOS.
BOOOOOO. (:
oh. &i dont feel like going t acs international anymore.
I just cant please everybody :D
oh fuck. It's time for bloody hunting. omyfuckinhell.
I think im not over you just yet. I feel like a bloody fucking slut now.
I just want you back fucking fucking fucking badly. Perhaps geraint was right, I cant force someone t love me &if you chose t leave me, you'll have your reason for it. I always thought i was so totally over you, but actually i was just avoiding everything, lying t myself that im over you. Lying t myself that i dont need you in my life &that i found someone else a thousand times better than you. I dont want t b breaking down everytime i look at you &seem like a bloody fool. I want t learn t let go and stop lying t myself &d whole entire fucking world.
im dying inside.
blogged @ 11:03 PM
Thursday, July 27, 2006'♥
I JUST REBONDED &TRIMMED MY HAIR.!
not much difference tho, just that my hair look damn flat.! JEEZZ. (:
I MISS EVERYONE.!
gosh.
having a splitting headache now.
)):
blogged @ 1:37 AM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006'♥
It's time i go on a diet. HAHAHA.
oh Lord, save me. There's like gazillion stuffs that i want t do.!
I need a haircut.
I need t slim down.
I need CLOTHES. (uh.!)
In general.
I NEED SOME MOOLAH.!
daddy, please read this.
: D
It's 2.49am. Im wondering when can i ever b NORMAL again. oh fuck. forget it.
I had it all
But I let it slip away
Couldn't see I treated you wrong
Now I wander around
Feeling down and cold
Trying to believe that you're gone
Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone
Losing my mind
From this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly
Love takes time to heal
when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that
I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone
You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care
You might say you don't miss me
You don't need me
But I know that you do
And I feel that you do inside
Love takes time to heal
when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone
I was just reading tiffie's blog &i really miss her.
HELL LOADS. ):
&my life's boring. BORING AND BORING.
always going through d same routine every-bloody-fucking-day.
I'll only sleep when people are getting ready for school and only waking up when people are geting off work. My mom dont even bother waking me up in d morning anymore, it just dont work. LAUGHS. then i'll either b in town or rotting at home waiting for d cows t come home.
oh damn. Im miserable enough, without me reminding myself what a boring life i actually have.
TILL THEN.
toodles.
blogged @ 2:59 AM
Monday, July 24, 2006'♥
Went sentosa with my family today. HAHAHA.
didnt disappoint me at all. had great fun minus d fact that i was bloody tired, &i nearly fell asleep.
will upload d photos tomorrow or something. :)
OH OH OH.!
i want t declare my love for audrey hepburn. HAHAHAHA.
She's like d most classic, gorgeous &i dont know what. UGHHH.! : D
-jumps.! YAY.!
ok. im mad cause im dying of boredom, literally. haha.
toodles.
blogged @ 1:06 AM
Thursday, July 20, 2006'♥
I love Shumei.
I love Michelle.
I love Pearl.
I love Lucinda.
I love Priscilia.
I love Jordus.
I love Sean.
I love D CLIQUE.! : D
I love those who knows i love them. HAHAHA.
&
ilovemybaby.
<33
blogged @ 11:28 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006'♥
Sneaked out t mummy's place with sean last night cause shu and co was playing poker. haha.
Interesting game but i havent really understood how it goes man. (:
Reached home at 6plus in d morning and throughout d whole journey, d uncle was busy telling us how much it'll actually cost t go t 3different places. ugh but whatever, at least i got home. jeez.
Stayed home for d entire day today. WOOHOO. quite proud of myself actually. Partly because im broke. damnit.
&I kinda miss paris. I miss roaming around with shumei. I miss all d times we spent together blabbering rubbish. I miss d times when we got scolded for not saying "bonjour". haha. PLAN OF PARIS. :)
my honeygummies.! (:
laudree.
I'll miss her like mad when she leaves for UK, i swear. &how i actually hope my dad will change his mind about sending me there now. 2009is damn far away.! ):
At least daddy gave me his assurance that he'll send me there.
I MISS SHUMEI.
I MISS SHUMEI.
I MISS SHUMEI.
and yes, shumei, I pasted that card on my wall. : D
It seems like everybody will b going somewhere. My mich honeybee will b going t US after her IB program too. sigh.
MICH.! can you dont go SLC.? can you go t UK with me &we'll join shumei over there, sean might b going too.! Just remember what did we plan with lu, pris, shu, pearl ok! haha.
oh. and i was just thinking.
Mayb i really was too fucked up t you. I didnt ever realised that until yao chong told me that mayb i've crossed d line. I just didnt want t b tied down with commitments and all or im just not ready for another relationship. I was not like this before, I never thought that i would go all crazy over this one guy &when he dumped me, I just felt like i lost everything and nothing could ever help me gain trust in relationships again. I didnt know what's d point in all that. All i wanted t do at that point of time was t make him regret that he ever dumped me. I was too selfish, yes.
but i've moved on and none of this actually matters anymore.
iloveyoubaby.
blogged @ 12:52 AM
Monday, July 17, 2006'♥
Im bored.! ):
my bestfriend's in town &i cant get my ass out of my house. ugh.
Im getting bored of my blogskin but im too lazy t change it.
:D
Im finally over him.! CHEERIOS.! : D
say you're proud of me NOW.!
prissy just sent me this.
liquids.
I look awful but whatever. HAHAHA.! :)
i'll update later. watching holland v on channel8 now.!
blogged @ 6:09 PM
Sunday, July 16, 2006'♥
Clubbed at Liquids last night with shumei, jordus, lucinda, matthew, priscilia, aaron. mavis, daryl and eddie. It was great even tho eddie only got in at 130am.
LAUGHS : D
Had supper at river valley. NICE MEE POK. hahaha. (:
MAVIS. YOU'RE DAMN FUNNY. : D
wheeeee.!
I AM DAMN BLOODY TIRED.!
went t church in d morning then had breakfast at d club with my whole entire family. : D
went trekking at bukit timah hill then had dinner at whampoa.
WHOAAA.
fuck im crapping. nights.
blogged @ 10:35 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006'♥
Hellooo all :D
Met shumei, lucinda, matthew &jordus at cine yesterday. Jeez. Shumei, jordus &me then left t that prata cafe at cluny road. IT WAS CLOSED.! bloody hippo. ):
Made our way t adam road's hawker centre before heading home.
grr.!
OH OH OH.!
I reserved this damn nice ed hardy dress.! I want. I want. I want.! :D
I always dont get t find nice things when i have d cash. and when i dont, nice things come flying. What in d world is that man.
It's FRIDAY.! (:
not clubbing tonight tho. They're having this poker night at lucinda's place. My eyelids are getting heavier by d minute. HOW AM I SUPPOSED T STAY AWAKE.
Somehow, I feel that it's time i should do something t make my life more enjoyable. oh shit. im starting t crap.
whatever.
toddles.
blogged @ 2:50 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006'♥
Met michelle and shumei in town after rotting at my dad's office for an entire day yesterday. Town's getting real boring especially when everyone's going t school &all d shit. ugh.
Mich have t go back early so shu &me when over t THE SCARLET HOTEL t meet matthew daddy. lucinda mummy and lucinda's brother. That hotel is damn bloody nice. nice term. :D
Hanged around and talked then we went over t mount faber. HAHAHA. damn cool. damn relaxing and they've jazz music on thursdays.! (:
COOLIO.
Went home after prata at upper thomson. :D gotta wake up early for d pulau ubin cycling trip.!
&guess what.
We didnt manage t wake up. haha. mich called me at 8am and i went back t sleep all d way till 4pm.
JEEZ. :D
stayed at home for d whole entire day. Am talking t paul now. YAWNS.
I LOVE you.
blogged @ 3:34 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006'♥
STUPID MONDAY BLUES.
oh damn. This is getting irritating. Kinda ran out t catch d final match between Italy &France at Sahara with shumei, sean, mich, xiu, nick heng, leo &his friend.
ITALY WON.! :D
see! I told you so. haha. There was no frigging cabs avaliable &it seems like d whole entire world was waiting for cabs. The booking hotline for cabs was engaged &we couldnt get through it. ugh.! We managed t book 2cabs in d end but one of it didnt turn up. SORRY MICH.! ):
My life is real messed up &i have no idea how t make everything better.
What if my acs international application fall through.? I swear my parents will kill me &i'll have t wait till dont know when t go uk.
Im getting stuck in between rave &alan once again. I dont like it at all.!
I still like rave. but i cant bring myself t admit that. can someone teach me what d fuck t do now.?
I just cant bring myself t stop contacting him. It all works in my brain. There's something seriously wrong with me now.
forget it man.
whatever.
gonna catch a nap now. toodles.
blogged @ 1:32 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006'♥
that's US. :D
went Escape with mich, shu, brandon, coco, pearl, baojun. mavis, jordus, john, matthew, lucinda, sean, tim and jerald on saturday. Managed t wake up despite d fact that we went MOS on friday. Didnt went in, mavis &me was just hanging around outside d club. haha. Waited for shu &co till like 5am. uh huh.! Had real fun although some cheena ah lians was being childish. :D Had dinner at cine before coming out AGAIN t catch that germany and portugal match. GERMANY WON.! :D
haha. stupid petit.
Will b heading t chijmes t catch d final match with d clique.
toodles :D
blogged @ 11:22 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006'♥
OMGGG. escape's closed on weekdays.! Will go back again this saturday. We went prawning in d end. haha. :D
It was entertaining. then cabbed back t shumei's place before heading t town. Shumei ended up sleeping &mich &i ended up playing with brandon, coco &jojo. I swear they're damn damn cute. (:
Caught d Germany &Italy match at coffee club with shumei, lucinda, matthew, janan &daryl. Only reached home at 6plus in d morning. Was so bloody tired, i slept all d way till 6plus in d evening. (: GEE.
Just caught d Portugal &France match at coffee club again. HAHA. France won.! WOOHOO. caught THANK YOU FOR SMOKING before d match. It's nice in general. haha. :D
OMG. fucking tired. ciaos.
blogged @ 6:13 AM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006'♥
havent been updating for ages. Just some random photos :D
NAT AND SEAN. (:
pizza frenzy.
MUMMY. DAUGHTER AND ME. :D
prissy and mummy. (:
sean. lucinda and prissy. (:
This was when lucinda mummy &prissy daughter stayed over. HAHAHA. I swear it was so much fun. :D
natlim and seannie came over for a swim so we all ended up fooling around. ((:
will b heading t escape with shu&mich tomorrow. :D
will update soon.
toodles.
blogged @ 1:57 AM