I'm disappointed & upset, all over again.
I really don't want to bother or care anymore.

Missing you is my hobby, caring for you is my job, make you happy is my duty, and loving you is my life. -Patricia Marx

Now I hate my life.

I hope the haze from the sumatra fire clears up, the weather is crazy.
Lazy sunday, having a bad stomachache but I haven't ate anything so it shouldn't be the food, OUCH.

I don't really know what I want to do now.
I just wanna walk around, chill, away from every single thing.
Desserts is not a bad idea at all, it always cheer me up from anything.
Do you go to a special place when you're upset? I do.
But people who really know me will know where -.- so it's not v special afterall.

HUNGRY. But, I want to lose weight.
My mom keep pinching my fats. I gained 3kg, i know. But I thought it wasn't ALOT, but she changed my mind. She asked me to go to the market, buy 3kg worth of meat, and see how much is it. Ok, now I know how much had been added to my short frame, it's fucking ALOT.
I'm trying, it's easier now cause I don't really have an appetite to speak of.

Things been crazy lately.
Just got back from our tw/hk trip, it was fun as usual, & I'm actually starting to like hk better.
But all the fun's gone for now, I'm so confused and messed up with everything.
I need to come up with a more concrete plan for stock-taking, maybe later.


















The next collection (http://marchshop.livejournal.com) is launched, & I love this photo so much, so natural and happy.
And, I love the dress too. The colour is sooooo nice, I swear.

There're so many turning points in life, & I am so thankful for all these new opportunities.
When God closes a door, he will definitely open another and when we lose something, it's making room for something better. It's not easy but things which are worthwhile, will never be easy.

However, I'm in such a messed up state now, I don't know where to start to correct.
And, a fever & flu is not going to help too, stupid weather, it's like living in an oven ):
So, please drink more water.
I want to do grocery shopping too, there's no food at home and I can't starve.
But, I'm not going out, I just don't feel like.