Wednesday, July 30, 2008'♥
21 July 2008
Met precious for dinner at PS cafe. (:
But I feel brunch is so much better than the dinner. Haha!
And there was black curry! HAHA.
Met Michelle for supper at Hong Kong Cafe after, cause she happened to be nearby(:
Hong Kong Cafe.
My love.
Mich was feeling super hungry that day. Haha.
Paul and Yong.
Met precious for dinner at PS cafe. (:
But I feel brunch is so much better than the dinner. Haha!
And there was black curry! HAHA.
Met Michelle for supper at Hong Kong Cafe after, cause she happened to be nearby(:
Hong Kong Cafe.
My love.
Mich was feeling super hungry that day. Haha.
Paul and Yong.blogged @ 2:38 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008'♥
I cannot remember what I did last week and earlier this week.
Went for Jerlyn's wake on Wednesday.
Her cremation was on Thursday.
We stayed through the night to accompany her.
It was really sad.
Especially during the cremation.
I am still shocked.
Couldn't believe it still.
Nobody to go ga-ga over the mad cow disease with already ):
Went to the accident scene yesterday.
Lamppost 25, right outside esplanade.
Trying to figure out how the accident happened.
But it was all assumptions.
Only Jerlyn and the Kean boon guy knows what really happened.
Sigh.
Quarrelled with Paul yesterday.
Over some really minor stuff.
Like me throwing tantrums over something he said.
Ok, my bad.
But I thought we discussed it before.
When i throw one of my tantrums, he should pacify me.
3 sentences, max.
But he didn't and I didn't want to be the one giving in either.
Why should it always be me.
He just shut me out, and didn't want to talk to me, at all.
It was really annoying and devastating, at the same time.
And only made me more pissed off.
And then, I get really irrational and pessimistic.
I realized, we always quarrel over the same things over and over again.
And I always give in over and over again.
Mayb my stubbornness acted up, or mayb I just didn't want to give in anymore.
I don't know.
I don't want to always be the one crying and begging him to forgive me, when sometimes it isn't my fault.
I've been thinking, whether I had been a good girlfriend.
Of course from my point of view, I am.
But I want to know whether I am one in his view.
I know, I always bring things up from the past when we quarrel, but who doesn't.
I tolerated what he did when he gets drunk.
I tolerated his moody tantrums.
I tried to not argue back whenever he shouts at me.
I always keep quiet when we get mad at each other, so that he can cool down.
I wrote him letters, cards and all.
I thought he will keep them properly.
I numbered every one of them.
I want to ask him where are they but I didn't dared to.
I thought he will treasure them.
Slowly, I just stopped writing.
He don't have the habit of writing notes, I guess.
But I believe I will keep them properly if he did.
I think the most I got from him was 2 testimonials.
It's okay. I don't mind, I guess.
I stopped comparing, it isn't healthy.
Shu says nothing is not forgivable.
I love bestf, she's always been there, someway or another (:
I can always count on her.
Thinking of her puts a smile on my face! Haha.
I remembered when I first got together with Paul, he lied to me and said he already had a girlfriend.
I hung up on him and called Shu and cried.
She called Paul and screamed at him for making me cry.
We shared so much memories (:
Went for Jerlyn's wake on Wednesday.
Her cremation was on Thursday.
We stayed through the night to accompany her.
It was really sad.
Especially during the cremation.
I am still shocked.
Couldn't believe it still.
Nobody to go ga-ga over the mad cow disease with already ):
Went to the accident scene yesterday.
Lamppost 25, right outside esplanade.
Trying to figure out how the accident happened.
But it was all assumptions.
Only Jerlyn and the Kean boon guy knows what really happened.
Sigh.
Quarrelled with Paul yesterday.
Over some really minor stuff.
Like me throwing tantrums over something he said.
Ok, my bad.
But I thought we discussed it before.
When i throw one of my tantrums, he should pacify me.
3 sentences, max.
But he didn't and I didn't want to be the one giving in either.
Why should it always be me.
He just shut me out, and didn't want to talk to me, at all.
It was really annoying and devastating, at the same time.
And only made me more pissed off.
And then, I get really irrational and pessimistic.
I realized, we always quarrel over the same things over and over again.
And I always give in over and over again.
Mayb my stubbornness acted up, or mayb I just didn't want to give in anymore.
I don't know.
I don't want to always be the one crying and begging him to forgive me, when sometimes it isn't my fault.
I've been thinking, whether I had been a good girlfriend.
Of course from my point of view, I am.
But I want to know whether I am one in his view.
I know, I always bring things up from the past when we quarrel, but who doesn't.
I tolerated what he did when he gets drunk.
I tolerated his moody tantrums.
I tried to not argue back whenever he shouts at me.
I always keep quiet when we get mad at each other, so that he can cool down.
I wrote him letters, cards and all.
I thought he will keep them properly.
I numbered every one of them.
I want to ask him where are they but I didn't dared to.
I thought he will treasure them.
Slowly, I just stopped writing.
He don't have the habit of writing notes, I guess.
But I believe I will keep them properly if he did.
I think the most I got from him was 2 testimonials.
It's okay. I don't mind, I guess.
I stopped comparing, it isn't healthy.
Shu says nothing is not forgivable.
I love bestf, she's always been there, someway or another (:
I can always count on her.
Thinking of her puts a smile on my face! Haha.
I remembered when I first got together with Paul, he lied to me and said he already had a girlfriend.
I hung up on him and called Shu and cried.
She called Paul and screamed at him for making me cry.
We shared so much memories (:
blogged @ 3:10 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008'♥
JERLYN, REST IN PEACE.I was shocked when i got the news from yong this afternoon.
Dear, eventho we only started being closer to each other these recent months, I really liked you (:
We see each other almost every other day.
I enjoyed the chats with you and I enjoyed seeing you singing and always making us laugh.
It's sudden.
And it's unbelievable.
I still can't believe it myself.
Rest in peace, dearest.
We miss you.
We really do.
blogged @ 3:31 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008'♥
Someone gave me this link (www.memyselfmine.blogspot.com) and it belongs to the girlfriend of the guy who passed away during his training in Brunei last month.
I read through her entries and I cannot help but cried along.
Well, her entries are really meaningful and touching.
Uh, I think nobody can understand the agony and pain she is going through. It must be really hard for her but she's strong, really strong.
Anyhow, it taught us to treasure whatever you have and love when you still can (:
You never know what will happen.
And it isn't hard to show someone that you care and love for them.
So....
BABY, I LOVE YOU!
You know i do. I always did.
Eventho I hate the way you talk to me when you don't have enough sleep.
And you always try to be sarcastic.
BUT..
I still love you(:
You never fail to do stupid things to make me laugh.
And I think the most important thing in a relationship is to be comfortable and happy. I always feel nothing can go wrong with you around, even when things goes hay-wired, I can just hide myself in your arms and things will miraculously turn better : D
And I share my darkest secret with you because I know, no matter what, You will still love me!
YOU WON'T BLURT THEM OUT RIGHT?!
I LOVE YOU!
You better love me more!
I read through her entries and I cannot help but cried along.
Well, her entries are really meaningful and touching.
Uh, I think nobody can understand the agony and pain she is going through. It must be really hard for her but she's strong, really strong.
Anyhow, it taught us to treasure whatever you have and love when you still can (:
You never know what will happen.
And it isn't hard to show someone that you care and love for them.
So....
BABY, I LOVE YOU!
You know i do. I always did.
Eventho I hate the way you talk to me when you don't have enough sleep.
And you always try to be sarcastic.
BUT..
I still love you(:
You never fail to do stupid things to make me laugh.And I think the most important thing in a relationship is to be comfortable and happy. I always feel nothing can go wrong with you around, even when things goes hay-wired, I can just hide myself in your arms and things will miraculously turn better : D
And I share my darkest secret with you because I know, no matter what, You will still love me!
YOU WON'T BLURT THEM OUT RIGHT?!
I LOVE YOU!
You better love me more!
blogged @ 5:09 AM
Thursday, July 10, 2008'♥
I don't feel good.
No apparent reason.
I just don't feel good.
I hate the pressuring datelines of projects.
I hate when I drift apart from friends whom i love.
Half of the time, I have no idea what I am doing.
Tell me, am i wasting my life away?
I want to do something useful.
I want to make myself and my family proud of me.
Is that something so hard to achieve?
I want to keep myself occupied with things because I over-think when I am doing nothing which is overly retarded but I cannot help it.
I want to go Taiwan.
Not trying to pretend that I am familiar with the place.
The only reason I like Taiwan so much because of all the nice memories there, apart from all the shopping and night markets.
At least, It made me felt, for once, that I know who I am.
And it made me feel good about myself.
I didn't have to pretend.
I didn't have to stress over much things.
I have Sharon and all the nice people(:
We cry and laugh when we talked about problems.
We shopped like hell online.
We gossip.
Very simple but very cosy.
And I look forward to every weekend and Sugarcane's off days, or even nights off.
Perhaps we don't go far, It might just be a small night market nearby but it made me feel so.....
I don't know. It is just nice.
It's making me hate Singapore.
Cause it mean problems every time.
And it's boring.
And everybody is busy with their work and studies.
I want Taiwan ):
September, sugarcane. I need a get-away. To re-energize?
No apparent reason.
I just don't feel good.
I hate the pressuring datelines of projects.
I hate when I drift apart from friends whom i love.
Half of the time, I have no idea what I am doing.
Tell me, am i wasting my life away?
I want to do something useful.
I want to make myself and my family proud of me.
Is that something so hard to achieve?
I want to keep myself occupied with things because I over-think when I am doing nothing which is overly retarded but I cannot help it.
I want to go Taiwan.
Not trying to pretend that I am familiar with the place.
The only reason I like Taiwan so much because of all the nice memories there, apart from all the shopping and night markets.
At least, It made me felt, for once, that I know who I am.
And it made me feel good about myself.
I didn't have to pretend.
I didn't have to stress over much things.
I have Sharon and all the nice people(:
We cry and laugh when we talked about problems.
We shopped like hell online.
We gossip.
Very simple but very cosy.
And I look forward to every weekend and Sugarcane's off days, or even nights off.
Perhaps we don't go far, It might just be a small night market nearby but it made me feel so.....
I don't know. It is just nice.
It's making me hate Singapore.
Cause it mean problems every time.
And it's boring.
And everybody is busy with their work and studies.
I want Taiwan ):
September, sugarcane. I need a get-away. To re-energize?
blogged @ 12:15 PM
'♥
MONDAY
30 JUNE 2008
Bestfriend Shu is BACK! (:
Shumei, Jordus and me had COCA (Favourite!) before Michelle, Leo and Chu Sheng reached.
COCA LOVES.
I've been dying to see her! Haha.
And she's going to be back for 3 months! YAY.
GAPRAMIU'CE ROCKS!
Michelle, Pearl, Shumei and Dorris!
And i AM tip-toeing. I was wearing flats and I look short!
Okay, I am short ):
Michelle and me are walking bananas! Haha!
I'm sorta falling in love with yellow already! YAY.
MARNI.
Jor couldn't decide on which colour to get. He got the red one in the end. Haha!
Bright bright jelly flats! : D
We were entertaining ourselves while Jordus was busying choosing. Haha!
And this is what happens when you get exhausted and bored with the camera. Haha!
Walked around before heading to Browhaus for threading!
It almost killed Shu! Haha. But she tolerated all of it for 30 minutes! Haha.
Powderful.
And as usual.
The entertaining goes on...
Haha!
Bollywood! The tree looks damn real in reality. Michelle thought it was real! Haha!
30 JUNE 2008
Bestfriend Shu is BACK! (:Shumei, Jordus and me had COCA (Favourite!) before Michelle, Leo and Chu Sheng reached.
COCA LOVES.
I've been dying to see her! Haha.And she's going to be back for 3 months! YAY.
GAPRAMIU'CE ROCKS!
Michelle, Pearl, Shumei and Dorris!
And i AM tip-toeing. I was wearing flats and I look short!
Okay, I am short ):
Michelle and me are walking bananas! Haha!I'm sorta falling in love with yellow already! YAY.
MARNI.Jor couldn't decide on which colour to get. He got the red one in the end. Haha!
Bright bright jelly flats! : D
We were entertaining ourselves while Jordus was busying choosing. Haha!
And this is what happens when you get exhausted and bored with the camera. Haha!Walked around before heading to Browhaus for threading!
It almost killed Shu! Haha. But she tolerated all of it for 30 minutes! Haha.Powderful.
And as usual.The entertaining goes on...
Haha!
Bollywood! The tree looks damn real in reality. Michelle thought it was real! Haha!
blogged @ 11:37 AM
Friday, July 04, 2008'♥
Friday
27June2008
Met Michelle and Pearl for shopping at Bugis! : D
Together with Paul and Yong.
Didn't really do much shopping tho. But it was good to see pearl-y and mich. I heart them so much (:
And shu touched down on Sunday so the whole gapramiu'ce is back! : D
We couldn't help it. We just had to be retarded for awhile.
I love being stupid and being dumb around my lovely friends : D
And their signature pose : D
LOVES!
Shumei touched down on Sunday! YAY.
I haven't seen her for so long.
Haha. Did Coca with her and the rest on Monday and just met her for a chat.
GPARAMIU'CE is LOVE.
27June2008
Met Michelle and Pearl for shopping at Bugis! : DTogether with Paul and Yong.
Didn't really do much shopping tho. But it was good to see pearl-y and mich. I heart them so much (:And shu touched down on Sunday so the whole gapramiu'ce is back! : D
We couldn't help it. We just had to be retarded for awhile.I love being stupid and being dumb around my lovely friends : D
And their signature pose : DLOVES!
Shumei touched down on Sunday! YAY.
I haven't seen her for so long.
Haha. Did Coca with her and the rest on Monday and just met her for a chat.
GPARAMIU'CE is LOVE.
blogged @ 5:00 AM