Tuesday, December 02, 2008'♥
I have loads of things to update on!-Dinner @ FarmMart-Marina Barrage-Kboxand more things.Wah! But I can't update now cause I'm at bb's house and I can't upload the photos. *****
Loads of stuff happened today, got me really annoyed and upset.
TO YOU:
I was not siding anyone, and in particular, my boyfriend.
I was utterly disgusted and upset, and I used vulgar language on you, out of pigue.
I apologized for my childish actions, but did you?
I explained for the millionth time, about Saturday and yesterday.
You did not take in any of it, because you are too engrossed in your own theories.
It was our fault on Saturday, and I apologized for being late.
Something cropped out, and we were late. Ok, our fault. We went over to look for you, as promised eventho it was already late because I didn't want you guys to wait for nothing. I have a conscience.
But I don't think yesterday was entirely Paul's fault.
Paul informed you he was meeting ** when you asked him to go for dinner with you.
He informed you.
I was disgusted with your answer because you said, is ** is more important than you waiting alone at home? ( FYI, you were going to meet your friends too, and Paul already asked ** out before you called. ) So what was he supposed to do? Ah! Give everybody up for you?
There shouldn't be any comparisons when it comes to friendship.
We are not primary school kids anymore, we stopped doing the " I-don't-friend-you-because-you-are-hanging-out-with-him/her" thing anymore.
Is this what our friendship have been all about?
It's disappointing, really.
I always thought friendships shouldn't be calculative, and shouldn't take not of what we did for each other.
All you can ever say is how much you did for us, and how we took you for granted.
Have you ever thought about it another way, and considered what we did for you?
The world do not just revolve around you.
If you want people to respect you, give people the respect they deserve too.
Yah, I know you will have excuses to defend yourself, and prove your point of view.
We are all not perfect.
If you value and treasure this friendship, you should trust us and be telling us the truth of how and what you are feeling, instead of keeping it to yourself.
What's the use of messaging with harsh words, and saying you want to end the friendship (and making it sound like it's our idea).
It will only end up with 2 unhappy parties and a whole lot of arguments with everybody trying to defend themselves.
I am not good with nice words when I am negative with something, but I do believe you understand what we feel, and why I will react in that way.
HA, how will you feel if your friend always think that he is the one putting in the utmost effort in the friendship and we are not trying to do anything substantially helpful to the friendship.
To make things clear, we put in as much effort as you did. I am sure of that.
Perhaps you just do not feel it, because you are always about yourself and never stopped to listen what others have to say about what they feel.
And if you treasure our friendship, talk to us face to face. We have nothing to hide, emphasizing on NOTHING.
Oh, and
Only say those hurtful and harsh stuff if you really mean it and want it to be that way. We will respect your decision.
HA, forget about it.
Had enough with all the childishness and sissyness. Sigh.
A lot of things going on.