My blog is hibernating together with me & my camera.

I wonder why.
I shall wake all up, say....soon.

I miss you.

There's so much going on, but I am not willing to give this up.
There shouldn't be a reason, but if there is, then this will have to be it.


& many many more.

No matter how much I tried to psycho myself, these memories are still etched in my mind & I want them to continue.
I don't know whether you are reading this, or not.
But, you meant a lot, to me.
These are things that can never be replaced.
I don't know how to describe my feelings, but I hope you will know.
You should know.


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On a happier note.
Not exactly happy, come to think of it.
I just want to rant.
I want to be 18 forever, & never having to grow up.

It's a vicious cycle.

I feel like, moving away to somewhere & start afresh.
Everything from scratch, again.

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But, I am thankful there's march.
At least, that keeps me from mourning at home & getting all psychotic & depressed.
I know, all the phrases used to cheer people up.
But, honestly, it don't really work.
I just need to analyze the situation & find a solution that will work, for me.

& right now, it is to stuff all my emotions into the shop.
That keeps me away from things, & I like it that way.

I have never been good at expressing my feelings.
I don't know how to, especially in front of people.
When I am happy, I smile.
When I am sad, I smile.
When I am angry and unhappy, I keep quiet.
I just never felt good to pile people with my rantings & complains.
I just write here, & then I will read it over & over again.
Until, I feel better.

I just keep things to myself, because that way, nothing will go wrong.
People won't blame me, if it don't go a certain way.